Let me start out by saying that this is not a post intended to bash homeschooling. I believe homeschooling is a great option for many families and can be done beautifully and successfully.
The truth of the matter is, however, homeschooling is not for everyone and that is ok.
I want to share our real life struggles with homeschooling and our decision to transition to public school because I feel like there is a void of information regarding the subject and I believe it can be helpful to know that you are not alone if you’ve tried homeschooling and it’s not what you expected or if you are considering homeschooling and wondering if it is right for you.
When I began contemplating the idea of homeschooling my daughters over 2 years ago, I scoured the internet searching for answers as to whether or not it would be a good fit for our family and what our long term education path might look like.
Nobody ever said that it would be easy (thank goodness), but everywhere I looked families were taking control of their children’s education and rocking it.
As a former early childhood educator I thought “I can totally do this”! What could be better than spending all day, every day, with my beloved children, tailoring their education to meet their exact needs, and building our family around our values and schedule?
Yep. It was a no brainer – I was homeschooling my Kindergartner and I was going to crush it!
As I bet you could have guess, It didn’t quite work out that way. Though it took me a long time to admit it (ahem…right now) homeschooling was A LOT harder than I thought it would be, but not in the ways you might guess.
As far as picking curriculum and actually teaching my kids – that part came fairly naturally to me.
Sure, there were late nights on the couch searching for yet another literacy program because the first one was too easy and the second one was too structured…
There were times when my oldest daughter’s perfectionist tendencies (that she may or may not have inherited from me) had us butting heads or days when I simply gave up trying to get my youngest to sit still for any type of formal instruction.
Overall, however, I felt pretty competent.
Whenever I started second guessing whether or not I was doing enough, they would have a major educational breakthrough to reassure me that things were working.
What ended up being hardest for me was balancing the role of mom and teacher.
Before homeschooling, I LOVED being a mom. I adored planning fun activities and taking them on outings.
Once we started homeschooling, all of my time and attention was poured into planning educational activities.
I was drained and had nothing left to give.
Before homeschooling I took my kids to weekly story times and play groups but I quickly discovered that, while they do exist, these types of programs are few and far between for school-age children.
When we did go out, we often felt out of place.
Another hard realization was that having two kids, close in age and opposite in personality, together ALL THE TIME was a recipe for insanity.
Siblings bicker. I get that.
My kids play nicely together about 50% of the time, but they are also very competitive. When left with zero space to do their own things or be their own people, it began to feel a little suffocating. For all of us.
I am very much an introverted person. I love my children but I need time, and space, and quiet – all of which are hard enough to come by as a mom, much less a homeschool mom who is surrounded by kids day and night.
When I don’t have time to process my thoughts or emotions I can become a pretty grumpy person and I was not happy with the Mom I had become.
I chose to homeschool to enjoy my kids more, and simply put, I wasn’t enjoying it at all.
I am not the type of person that likes to admit defeat (who does?), so I kept chugging along convincing myself that I was in some sort of mom-funk and needed to snap myself out of it.
I couldn’t dare entertain the thought that maybe I had taken on too much. I was born to be a mom so how could spending 100% of my time on my kids not make me happy?
And even more than that, was my happiness alone, reason enough to think of making a change? After all, my kids were doing great academically – what more could I want?
Thats when God threw me a bone – a ticket to bow out gracefully.
Right as my oldest daughter’s first grade year was coming to a close and I was really beginning to contemplate whether or not this was going to be a road we could continue down much longer, my husband got a job offer in Seattle.
Before we knew it, it was a done deal and we were searching the internet for houses.
We were really struggling to find something that would accommodate our budget and our menagerie of pets, but just as things were beginning to feel hopeless we found the perfect rental and just down the street they were building a brand new elementary school! I knew right then that this would be a perfect opportunity for a fresh start!
We spent all summer planning and preparing to send them both to school in the fall. While I knew it was the right time, I still felt anxious as to how the transition would play out.
Would my kids settle in easily or stick out as “homeschoolers”? Would public school meet their needs academically?
Would it help them grow socially and emotionally or would it steamroll right over their uncalloused hearts? Not to mention the question of how on earth I was going to cope with sending both of my babies off to school at the very same time.
We are just now wrapping up our first full week of school and while most of those questions and concerns will take time to completely answer, I feel more confident than ever that this is the right choice for them.
We’ve had our fair share of struggles this week in terms of navigating the social aspects of a much larger pond, but the lessons my kids are learning, while difficult and sometimes painful, are helping them to grow in ways that I could never have prepared them for on my own.
I feel grateful to be a part of this community that seems to be very involved and supportive and can already see that taking this leap of faith will help us all move forward into this next season of life.
I want to end by saying that I do not at all regret my decision to homeschool.
My daughters both excelled academically in that environment and I think getting off to a strong start will make a lasting impact on their learning.
I also really enjoyed the privilege of guiding them through some of their earliest and most important educational discoveries.
Getting to know their individual learning styles and realizing the importance of following their lead will be beneficial while helping them with homework and advocating for them within the school environment.
Further more, I know that if I hadn’t given homeschooling a try I would always look back with a big “what if”.
If you are considering homeschooling, I think it is a great option and worth a try. Just know that, as with all choices, there are definite pros and cons.
Think hard about your personality and your kid’s personalities. If you are the type of person that can easily create your own social network and be “on” all of the time, then homeschooling could be awesome for you.
If not, it might be worth considering other options or having a strong support system in place before you jump right in.
Every family is different and sometimes you need to try things on for size before you know whether or not its a good fit and that’s ok too. You will be better off knowing than spending the rest of your life wondering.